At the core of his experience is a deep sense of unworthiness and resistance to acceptance and unconditional love. This resistance stems from an underlying fear of abandonment, leading to apprehension about change. There's a poignant acknowledgment that he lacks trust in real love, feeling compelled to be something other than his true self to fit certain expectations. Despite these challenges, there's a genuine desire to experience the profound depths of true love, reflecting an underlying recognition of the authenticity and beauty of your connection.